Everything Inside My Head

2004-03-11T20:30:00.000-08:00

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"Which Kingdom Hearts Character Are You?"
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2004-01-15T15:40:00.000-08:00

Darkness is your passion. You can't live without it
and you're starting to turn dark. You are
interested in things that others fear,
sometimes using it against them. So much fun.
You think you're pretty dark, but that ain't
true. Better watch your back, real dark people
may find it fun to teach you a thing or two
about REAL darkness...

Please rate ^^

What kind of dark person are you?
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2004-01-15T15:39:00.000-08:00

SELENE: You are selene!
Beautiful, vivacious,
fierce and seductive, Selene vowed she would
destroy Lycans after her family was murdered by
the werewolves. So ruthless is she that selene
is a member of the Death Dealers. This elite
Vampire warrior class's mission is to make the
Lycans extinct.
Ever wish you could be a
vampire?

Which UNDERWORLD character are you?
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2003-10-16T12:44:00.000-07:00

You are Sailor Pluto!

~*~Which Sailor Scout are you?~*~
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2003-10-16T12:42:00.000-07:00

You are Sailor Mercury. You have are very
intelligent and have a great personality. Your
friends are very important to you.

Which Sailor Scout are you?w/ pics
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2003-10-16T12:41:00.000-07:00

U are Sailor Moon..You are a great friend

Which Sailor Scout are You??? (For Girls)
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2003-10-16T12:40:00.000-07:00

You are Raye*_*

which Sailor scout are you??
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2003-10-16T12:39:00.000-07:00

You are Sailor Moon. A lazy romantic that eats and
sleeps all day and night! You do have a soft
side when you are not tripping over or asleep.

Which Sailor Scout are you??
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2003-10-16T12:37:00.000-07:00

u r sailormars you have a hot temper but your cool.

which sailor scout are you?(pretty pic)
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2003-10-16T12:36:00.000-07:00

You're Tsukino Usagi/Sailor Moon! Your name means
rabbit of the moon, and your often called
Bunny. You're usually a kind person, but you
can be sensitive and you're very protective
over what belongs to you. Such as your
boyfriend and your money.

Which Sailor Scout Are You?(inner and outer senshi)
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2003-10-16T12:32:00.000-07:00

You're Sailor Venus (or Mina),You're extremely
friendly and not afraid to say what's on your
mind. You like to look out for others,
especially those younger than yourself. You see
no need for violence, you prefer to talk things
through. You're a loyal friend, which is a good
quality to have!

Which Sailor Scout are you?(for girls)
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2003-10-16T12:27:00.000-07:00

you are Sailor Moon: optimistic but a bit ditzy,
You are a caring friend

which sailor scout are you? with pics ( UNFINISHED!!!)
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2003-10-16T12:26:00.000-07:00

Sailor Saturn

You may think your life is worthless - but there is
always hope of a rebirth in your eyes. Don't be
dishartend by comments made about you -
remember to just make one good friendship!

Which Sailor Scout Are You? (With Pics)
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2003-10-16T12:24:00.000-07:00

You're Sailor Mars

Which Sailor Scout Are You? (Girls Only, I Hope)
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2003-10-16T12:23:00.000-07:00

You are.... Sailor Mercury! You are studious and
intelligent, and kind of shy. Your elements are
ice, air, and freshwater, and your god is
Hermes.

Which Sailor Scout are you? (Girls only)
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2003-10-16T12:20:00.000-07:00

You are...Amy Anderson aka Sailor Mercury!
Amy is 14 as well and turns 16 in the last season.
Some where in between she aquires glasses. Amy
is very bright and often sensitive. She spends
most of her time studying for school. She wants
to be good so she can help people and be a
docter. If anything, that's Amy's dream. Amy is
a true and loyal friend and usually has to
break up fights between Raye and Serena. Amy
lives with her mother, I think she might be
devorced and her dad is a painter. Amy is
always there for her fellow scouts, and is very
determined. She is calm and logical, using
reason before panic. With her visor and
computer she can solve any problem they run
accross.

Which Sailor Scout are you? (Girls only)
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2003-10-16T12:18:00.000-07:00

Sailor Mercury

Which Sailor Scout are you? (First Season)
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2003-10-16T12:15:00.000-07:00

Your Sailor Moon

Which Sailor Scout Are You!!
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2003-10-16T12:14:00.000-07:00

Congratulations! You are most like Sailor Pluto!
(aka , um, i forget her name...) You are a
nice, quiet person, but you are loyal. You are
also an enigma. Silent and beautiful, you like
poetry, classical music, and saving people.

Which Sailor Scout are you most like?
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2003-10-16T12:09:00.000-07:00

Sailor Mars

Which Sailor Scout are you most like?
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2003-10-16T12:08:00.000-07:00

You are AMY! A genius, you were picked on until
Serena befriended you. You are the weakest
scout, but your strategies and brainpower make
up for that.

Which Sailor Scout Are You Most Like?
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2003-10-16T12:06:00.000-07:00

Hey, you are like Sailor Moon! You are flaky, ditzy
and lazy, but you are smart and sweet and would
do anything for a friend, and can always be
counted on in the clutch.

Which Sailor Scout Are You Like?
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2003-10-16T12:02:00.000-07:00

You are friends with Serena!You aren't very
bright,but you are the glue that holds your
friends together!

Which Sailor Scout are you destined to be friends with?(girls,pictures changed!)
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2003-10-16T11:55:00.000-07:00

Congradulations, You are most like Sailor Moon!
You are most likely very caring and surrounded by a
great deal of friends, you get along with
almost anyone and many are drawn to you. You
don't show it on the surface but you have some
great leadership qualities. People are very
important things in your life, but most of
these things are kept on the inside, most see
you as a ditz or airhead and may think of you
as a kluts, close friends will know otherwise.

*~Which Sailor Scout are you most like? (New Pictures)~*
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2003-10-06T15:15:00.000-07:00

Here are some funny moments that should never be forgotten...BTW...you will only understand them if you were there:
Ellen: What was the sound?
Sarah: Sounded like a pop
Ellen: Rachel?
Rachel: *shrugs*
Sarah: OMG it's a pen!
Rachel: Oh crap! *takes out pen*
Ellen: What are you doing !?!?!
Sarah: OMG it's deflating!

Announcer: And they're off!
Liz: whee ooo whee ooo
Ellen: LIZ!!!!
Sarah: Liz stop!
Liz: whee ooo *crash* whee oo *crash*
Ellen: Stay in one lane!
Sarah: Liz stop it!

Ellen: Hmm I think it's gonna...
Karon: DON'T YOU DARE SAY IT
Ellen: But I really th...
Karon: It's bright and sunny ELLEN...Don't say it!
Ellen: Ok...but it's gonna rain
Karon: NO NO NO!!! Why me!?!?!

Amanda: Tie your shoe lace.
Ellen: Don't worry I won't tri...*BAM*
Amanda: OMG
Ellen: *starts laughing her ass off*

Megan: Ok so Ellen jumps five times and then Kristen pushes her out of the way
Lee: That's how we wrote it
Ellen: Okie day *winks*
Kristen: Let's start *hits the play button*
Megan: *picks up the jump rope*
Kirsten: *counts five jumps and shoves Ellen*
Ellen: *foot gets stuck in the rope and falls face first into the concrete*

Liz: Ok I'm gonna flip the flag now *throws the flag into the air*
Ellen: OMG Liz!
*the flag hits the ceiling putting a huge hole in it*
Ellen: Let's move away quietly...we didn't do anything

Sarah: Sheepie!
Ellen: Come and get him *starts running down the stairs*
Sarah: Sheepie *hears a huge crash*

That's all for today folks....more coming soon!

2003-09-25T12:21:00.000-07:00

You are a cold hearted individual. You have no
interest or respect for others and you don't
care about the respect of others. You are so
concerned with your own affairs that a Vampire
walks right up to you and takes you into his
embrace. Welcome to your undeath.

href=http://quiz.ravenblack.net/blood.pl?biter=EvilBill>Join
Here

How Evil Are You Really?
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2003-09-25T12:18:00.000-07:00

Legardored is your Vampire name.
You are one hell of an insane Vampire. Anyone who
messes with you is out of their minds.
To use your new Vampire name and become a Vampire,
go here:
www.life-blood.cjb.net

What is your Vampire name?
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2003-09-25T12:14:00.000-07:00

You're goin' down! FOR HACKING INTO COMPUTERS!
Please rate if you liked!

If you're a goth please visit
groups.msn.com/gothicteensoftheworld and join
up cause it rules!

What Would You Go to Jail For? (Many outcomes)
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2003-09-25T12:07:00.000-07:00

You're Most Like The Season Winter ...

You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.

Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)

?? Which Season Are You ??
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2003-09-25T12:00:00.000-07:00

Morpheus

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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2003-09-25T11:55:00.000-07:00

<<>>???What Kind Of Angel R You???<<>>( NEW!!! Anime Pics )
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2003-08-30T21:40:00.000-07:00

You are a darkness dragon. You have a sadness
lurking about you but deep down you are a very
cheery person.

What type of dragon are you?
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2003-08-30T21:38:00.000-07:00

You are insane Muhahhahaha *giggles* you are just
like ME. Trust me thats a goooood thing. but
dont worry i havnt got put in the nut
house.............yet MUhahahahaha.

Are you sane (probably. ...NOT)??
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2003-08-30T21:35:00.000-07:00

EVIL!! PURE EVIL!

Are you evil, good, or other? (with pictures!)
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2003-08-30T21:20:00.000-07:00

ooooo look you're po

which teletubbie are you?
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2003-08-30T21:19:00.001-07:00

You are Fire..BURN BABY BURN!!!

NOT DONE YET what element are you?
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2003-08-30T21:19:00.000-07:00

ur Edea

Wut FFVIII character r u? ( for girls)
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2003-08-30T21:17:00.000-07:00

Nightmare Before Christmas!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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2003-08-30T21:03:00.000-07:00

SPIRIT is your chinese symbol!

What Chinese Symbol Are You? -- Updated (7/21/03)
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2003-08-29T18:08:00.000-07:00

You are Jubilee!

Though you may be young and inexperienced, you have
great potential and will someday become an
admirable figure. For that to happen, though,
you must overcome your juvenile belief system
and adopt a more mature view on life.

Which X-Men character are you most like?
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2003-08-29T18:05:00.000-07:00

Your Kagome! you like to hang out with your friends
and are always the first person to volunteer to
show a new student around, you are kind and
giving and enjoy having a occasional sleep-over
with the girls!

What Inuyasha Character are you?
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2003-08-29T17:59:00.000-07:00

cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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2003-08-29T17:56:00.000-07:00

You are Jasmine from Aladdin!

What Disney Princess are you?
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2003-08-29T17:54:00.000-07:00

congratulations. you are the "you smell like
butt" bunny. your brutally honest and
always say whats on your mind.

which happy bunny are you?
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2003-08-29T17:41:00.000-07:00

WOW!!! It's been so long since I've updated this thing. That's totally my fault though. Summer came and well most of you get the point. Summer grabs you and you can't come back. Well summer is over and reality came back. School's started and well it's boring. Imagine that. Teehee! I guess the summer kind of flew by for me. You never realize how short things are until they fly write past you I guess. Well I don't have much to say or write or much of anything right now. I figured I should update this and hopefully...I will be more on top of things.

2003-06-30T01:38:00.000-07:00

Catty

Which 'Daughter of the Moon' are you?
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2003-06-30T01:34:00.000-07:00

Squall

What Final Fantasy 8 character are you most like?
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2003-06-30T01:31:00.000-07:00

Congrats! You're Vivi, the cute little Black Mage.
You're careful and maybe a bit too careful, but
everyone loves ya anyway!

What Final Fantasy Nine Character Are You?
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2003-06-30T01:30:00.000-07:00

You're more of an indie person...You're laid back,
you make your own rules when it comes to
fashion and other things that would normally be
lead by the evil pop industries. Your music
rocks, you are like a rock, and you rock, ROCK
ON. :)

Are you a poser, punk, goth, emo, prep, or what?
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2003-06-30T01:24:00.000-07:00

Fire Fairy: Congratulations you got the fire fairy:
You are the fire the is known to cause volcanic
erruptions when you are angry and you have a
pretty hot temper. You are a strong fire user
and allies with the dark fairy.

Fairy categorization: Which elemental fairy are you?
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2003-06-30T01:22:00.000-07:00

Harry Potter

Which bishie from Harry Potter is for you?
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2003-06-29T20:57:00.000-07:00

Sailor Moon

Which Sailor Scout are you most like?
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2003-06-29T17:12:00.000-07:00

You are in...GRYFFINDOR!

What Hogwarts House Should You Be In?
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2003-06-29T17:05:00.000-07:00

You come from an Ancient Civilization. Egypt,
China, Rome... a piece of all the greatest
civilizations of their time can be found in
you.

Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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2003-06-29T16:49:00.000-07:00

You're A School Girl!
You may not get the best grades, but you'll always
be found sporting your sleek school uniform.
You've got school spirit, and lots of it!
Pocket PCs and Pocky can be found in your
backpack, and you love cute stuffed animals
like teddy bears and bunnies!

What Type Of Anime Character Are You?
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2003-06-29T16:43:00.000-07:00

You are Tank, from "The Matrix." Loyal
till the end, you spare no expense in ensuring
the well-being of others.

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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2003-06-29T16:40:00.000-07:00

You Have the Power to Turn Things to Stone!

What's Your Magic Power?
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2003-06-29T16:33:00.000-07:00

Goddess of the Night. Beautiful yet a strange
darkness and sadness lurk about you.

What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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2003-06-29T15:36:00.000-07:00

borderline

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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2003-06-29T15:32:00.000-07:00

Your Fun panties!
Your a great person to be around, you really know
how to have fun, without being really
promiscuous, good for you!

What kind of panties are you?
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2003-06-29T15:28:00.000-07:00

you're XhardcoreX!

How can I label you?
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2003-06-29T15:23:00.000-07:00

You are Peace.

You are at peace with your self and the world
around you. You have balance in your life and
exude tranquility from every pore of your body.
People are constantly asking you "what is
your secret?"

What Emotion Are You?
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2003-06-29T15:01:00.000-07:00

2003-06-29T14:54:00.001-07:00

Nihilist Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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2003-06-29T14:54:00.000-07:00

Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You? quiz, by Angel.

2003-06-29T14:53:00.002-07:00

What color are you? (Anime Pictures)
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2003-06-29T14:53:00.001-07:00

YOU EAT PEOPLE!!!

what's YOUR deepest secret?
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2003-06-29T14:53:00.000-07:00

SPIRIT is your chinese symbol!

What Chinese Symbol Are You?
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2003-06-29T14:52:00.001-07:00

I am a giant mutant kitten. Not strange at all.

Which cute or possibly strange kitten are you?
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2003-06-29T14:52:00.000-07:00

What sugar cereal mascot are you most like?
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2003-06-29T14:51:00.001-07:00

Your Life Has been one filled with darkness and
seemingly endless shadows. You walk along,
alone, for what seems like eturnity. But just
as the night the pain of lonelyness soon will
end. All you can do is wait.

Walk With Me?
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2003-06-29T14:51:00.000-07:00

You're German, ja. You eat bratwurst and wear
leterhose. Then you go out at night and party
hard at one of your raves. But you come back
home, with your Mutter and your Vater. Ja..

What nationality stereotype are you?
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2003-06-29T14:50:00.001-07:00

your fuck.

What swear word are you?
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2003-06-29T14:50:00.000-07:00

What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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2003-06-29T14:49:00.000-07:00

You should be a Leo, your Outgoing, friendly,
generous, loyal, and fearless, but you can aslo
be rude, loud, and a little hot Tempered.

~*What is your TRUE Zodica sign?*~
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2003-06-29T14:48:00.000-07:00

Psycho. You are overwhelmed by anger. You may even
hate the world and everything in it and you
believe revenge is the way of the world. An eye
for an eye.

How Emotional Are You?
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2003-06-29T14:47:00.000-07:00

You're the queen of darkness. You'd rather be in
control than left behind. And you've somehow
gotten it into your head that your the best
thing that happened to this planet. People may
think you sweet and innocent, but guess what? I
know what you did last summer(I couldn't
resist!)

What kind of myth should you be?(for girls only)
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2003-06-23T00:34:00.000-07:00

"Long days will come my child. Long days will go. And days like your dream may come to pass. But it was just a dream," Narine said as she gave Firy a big hug.
"But it wasn't," Firy replied. "I know it wasn't. I could sense that it was going to come."
"If it is going to come, when will it be?"
"It will come to pass when the moon shows twice within a month."
"You speak of a blue moon my dear."
"It may be. But bewarned my mother. It will come. And it will be the end of our race forever." Narine looked at Firy as if she were crazy. How could this be? How could Firy see the future?
"If it will make you go back to sleep," Narine began to say, "I will watch out. I will be careful in everything I do." Narine tucked Firy back into bed and left the room. She walked down the long hall to the throne room where several of her handmaidens stood.
"Highness," one women began, "is everything ok?"
"Yes everything is just fine. When is the next blue moon?"
"In about six months," Serene said entering the room. "Why so curious about blue moons Narine?"
"Firy is having dreams. She thinks they are visions."
"You believe they are more then dreams?"
"I'm not sure. But I promised her I would be careful."

2003-06-17T16:12:00.000-07:00

Ok I literally have nothing to write today. I have nothing to say. Nothing to think upon. I figured I should just update this so Sarah doesn't get on my case. But who can blame her. I do take forever to update.

2003-06-11T07:21:00.000-07:00

Continueing from today's earlier story........

Here my body layed a thousand years
until the day my body cried tears
the pain from the fall
had finally gotten to me above all
my ghost was above watching me
from me straight to the sky i could only see
that fall again over in my head
and then back down to where my body lay dead
why was i so stupid and young to follow that seed
dare I never listening to a warning that says heed
for a thousand years my ghost sat
waiting oh waiting for...that
for the tears my corpse finally cried
they were the official symbol that i had died
my hopes and my dreams all gone
because i stupidly did wrong
for that dragon the lay hurt me so
not physically but mentally when i gave the go
that stupid ledge i had to see
so that i would jump...little young me
so hear me now and hear me good
never follow a seed if you could
for the lead you dragons that will eat you for a snack
trust me i know it's a fact
my body gone...my soul finally free
thank goodness to the tears that be

2003-06-11T03:27:00.000-07:00

Today I have a story to tell...So listen up and listen well...

I'm stuck in the mountains and that's where I'll stay...
Forever where my body will lay...
Yet through it all I undertsand...
Put here by my very own hand...
I'm sure you all can't wait for me to tell...
This story which doesn't end well...
I was young yes indeed...
When I came across what looked like a seed...
A round object that wasn't to tall...
But none the less not that small...
It said to me "Follow if you will"...
So I followed the seed up a giant hill...
At the top of the hill lay a dragon...
His tail whipping around but his body laggin...
"Me oh my what is this I see...
But a tiny snack brought here just for me"...
"I'm not a snack" I said big and tall...
"I'm just a curious elf above all"...
"Curious you may be my friend...
Too bad today is your very end"...
So there beside me was a ledge...
So I decided to leap off the edge...
I plummited to the ground from the sky...
Where in those mountains I will forever die

Written by me Ellen Lorimor

2003-06-10T22:35:00.000-07:00

Ok sometimes you have long days. Some days you have short days. And some days just NEVER end. Today for me, it was a NEVER ending day. Someone once said "Silence is golden". Well today, Silence would have been golden. But no, today was loud, long, and my head I swear was gonna explode. I know everyone knows what I'm talking about. B/C I know everyone has a had a day like that. Now if you excuse me...I'm going to get some long deserved shut eye.

2003-06-08T15:00:00.000-07:00

Ok finally. I've been trying for the past ten minutes to get in. I couldn't remember my stupid password. It's like Forest Gump once said "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what your gonna get." He was the smart one. Life is something funny that none of us will ever understand. We don't always get to choose why, when, where, or what things happen...they just do. I guess it's like a couple shows I watch. In Charmed, the three witches are always trying to save someones life and protect their own at the same time. They have gone to the future and the past and changed so many things. In a show called The Jersey, kids use this jersey to jump into famous athletes. At first it was just for fun. But they later discover that the jersey has more power then they know of. That it is masterious and that it tries to help them out with problems. A show called Stargate SG 1 is one of my favorites. They use this gate called the stargate. It sucks them through a wormhole and puts them on another planet lightyears away. They started using it to discover new technology that would help there planet (Earth). They later discover a race called the Gou-a-oold (not sure how to spell it). This race is highly advanced in many ways. So instead of their journey being about technology, it is now about saving everyones life.

Ok the point to all this is...Every show I've listed has a different storyline to it. Each character in that show started out doing their own thing. But somehow the fates (I believe in greek mythology) decided something else in store for them. They have taken their destinies and molded them into their own thing with the preset part already in front of them. No one will ever understand what makes life so unpredictable, no matter how hard we try.

2003-05-16T14:17:00.000-07:00

Ok Sarah is right...I haven't updated in awhile. I've been very VERY busy. I got my permit today and I'm so happy. Today I took my speech final. I read two speeches and something from one of them stuck with me.

In our sleep pain which
we cannot forget
falls drop by drop upon
the heart until, in our own
despair, against our will,
comes wisdom through the awful grace of god
~Aeschylus~

Also something for Martin Luther King Jr. stuck with me

A man dies when he refuses to stand up for that which is right
A man dies when he refuses to stand up for justice
A man dies when he refuses to stand up for that which is true
~Martin Luther King Jr.~

See the first speech I read was given by Martin Luther King. The second one that I read was given by Robert F. Kennedy. MLK was talking about freedom. RFK was talking about MLK's death and togetherness (you had to hear the speech to understand). It all got me thinking. And let me tell you, I don't think that often because thinking tends to toast my marshmallow brain. MLK's speech taught me not to give up. To fight for what we believe in. I guess that brings me to the point of this entry.

Awhile ago, I gave up on something....actually someone...anywho...I tried so hard on so many things. Finally this person told me how they really felt. And I totally understand. It makes perfect sense. But I was shattered. I could feel my heart stop and burst into a billion pieces. It was the first time I had ever had my heart broken. Oh wait the second time. But the real first time was nothing like this. I finally knew what it was like to have your heart truly broken. So now I would like to end today's entry with one last quote.

Deep down in our non-violent creed is the conviction
there are some things so dear; some things so precious;
some things so eternally true, that they're worth dying for.
~Martin Luther King Jr.~

2003-05-12T15:37:00.000-07:00

ELLEN YOU HAVEN'T UPDATED IN FOREVER!!
SO IM UPDATING FOR YOU

.....there

2003-04-10T12:08:00.000-07:00

sometimes you start a story. One that is so amazing to even yourself. Like a week ago I started the story about the whale watch trip. But for some reason my heart tells me to not finish it. Don't ask me why though. I feel lost these days. My friend was talking to me yesterday that her friend died. I was so crushed even though I didn't know the person. She went crazy. I'm still sort of worried that she's a little out there. I hope she feels better today. I can not bear to see her hurt. Anway that's all I have to say really. Just no one else kill themselves. I don't think I could handle anymore pain like that.

2003-04-04T20:53:00.000-08:00

It's always funny how memories can come back so fast. How they can make you laugh until your sides hurt so bad you feel like you're gonna fall over. Or how the memories can make you feel so horrible that you want to shoot yourself in the head. Well none of the stories (memories) written are ever ever bad. They might be a little but not enough for me to want to kill myself. Again, that's another story for another day. A person's mind is very very complex. They can remember or forget things very easily. Which leads me into my next story. This one really doesn't have a point to anything I have just said though. I was in seventh grade when they offered a trip to about 100 seventh grade students. It was the whale watch trip. From just the information it sounded wonderful. So Sarah, Liz, me, and couple other people I knew decided to go. Sarah and I shared a room with two other girls. The first night was the best. We ran up and down the hotel halls making idiots out of ourselves. Now Liz and Sarah went down to the pool. They tried for like half-an-hour to get me to go but I refused. So in the end I stayed in the room and watched TV. When Sarah got back she had the idea to get soda. So we got about $2 each and went down to the soda machine. We both got two sodas. Stupid me got coke and fogot I couldn't have it. See I'm alergic to it. It gives me HORRIBLE headaches. Anyway I got coke and i member b/c I had such a horrible headache that I had to take motrin and tylenol. So after me and Sarah got hyped up on sugar and soda and lots of stuff (you'd swear we were on drugs though) we started to jump on the beds. Well we finally got to bed and to sleep. The next day we did the actual whale watching. It was so amazing. We went on this boat that went 40 MPH. Now it was already like 40 degrees ouside so the boat ride was FREEZING. Luckily there was an inside part of the boat. So Sarah, Liz, Steve, and me went in and got hot chocolate. Liz decided it would be funny to go outside and jump while the boat was going at top speed. Stupid Steve joined her. So they jumped. I believe that they hit the glass b/c the wind flew them both backwards. What happened next? Tomorrow is when I'll finish the story.

2003-04-03T14:40:00.000-08:00

hahahah yeah good times

2003-04-03T14:37:00.000-08:00

OMG...I was sitting here just starring at the screen when I remembered some funny stuff that happened when I still lived in New Jersey. I was at my house and Sarah and Liz were gonna come over. I decided that we should play some video games. So I got out the Ridge Racer game because it's mine and Sarah's favorites. So then all three of us played it. Neither me or Sarah could get past Liz's car. She kept ping-ponging off the walls shout "Wee-ooo wee-ooo wee-ooo!" It was so annoying. Yet it was completely hilarious. You kind of had to be there if you don't find it funny just reading about it. So after me and Sarah got really annoyed...we decided to go outside on the tramp-o-lene (i don't care how it's spelled). Now I had one of those Gigantic ones that like 7 people can jump on at once. So we were jumping and Sarah double bounced Liz. Now Liz is very small compared to me and Sarah so she flew into the air almost hitting a very high tree branch. Now the really bad part is...Liz didn't exactly land back on the tramp-o-lene. She land on the gorund. But she wasn't hurt at all. What made it so funny...was that she just laughed and laughed and laughed. It was hilarious. So she got back on and me and her or Sarah and me decided to do a flip. Half way through the air we hit each other and fell on the tramp-o-lene. We hurt each other REALLY bad. Now what makes it so weird is that we didn't bruise each other or anything. So the same shit happened over and over and over again. It was so funny b/c we all relized how clumsy we all are. Now trust me I'm the clumsiest of them all b/c I can't even walk and chew gum at the same time. But that's another story for another day.

2003-04-03T13:48:00.000-08:00

La di da di da....yea thats all I really have to say...the same thing keeps repeating my head...too bad you can't hear the tune...Then maybe someone could tell me what the hell I'm hearing...it gets really annoying sometimes....

Spring break is comin up and I so can't wait...Hopefully I will be going to NJ...My home...But of course I don't kno right now...B/c my mom is being weird and hasn't gone to look at tickets yet...She says she is going to tonight...But whatever...I just can't ait because if I actually get to go it will be so much fun...Although I have no idea why the hell I'm telling you people this...It's not like you care...But whatever...anyway I can't wait...La di da di da...Teehee...

2003-04-03T13:39:00.000-08:00

Day after day I think of that place...That place that made me the happiest...The one place where I could be myself...The place where I didn't care what the hell people thought of me...Doesn't matter how I see it...Doesn't matter how I get there...Just that one place...

Day after day I think of the people...The people that made me smile...The people that made me want to scream...The people that were my friends...The people that were truly my family...The people that I could always count on no matter what...

Day after day I remember the events...The events that made me who I am...The events that I wish never happened...The veents that I will forever remember...The events that made me laugh...The ones that made me mad...And the ones that made me depressed...

No matter how I look at it...It was just there day after day...The memories...The friends...The place...And above everything I remember day after day...